Sonija Kwok: Women Don't Marry

Source: Oriental Daily
Translated by: aZnangel & kingkongit27 @ http://asianuniverse.net/forums/

Sonija Kwok: Women Don't Marry

Recently in the Entertainment industry there have been wedding announcements. Carina Lau and Tony Leung ended their love race by getting married in Bhutan. Also Kelly Chen announced earlier she will be marrying her long term boyfriend. As for Sonija Kwok she stated she didn't feel a urge to get married. Perhaps due to many storms in her relationships that have left her to feel numb about it. She is currently much happier with the calmer life.

"I have just had my 34th birthday, I am one year older. Because I am from a Miss Hong Kong background, even if I don't reveal my age, many people will research it on the internet to find out. If you say I am old, I will say: [Aren't you old too?). Many people grew up with me, although I have been through a lot I haven't felt any pressure. Having experience is very important for an actress, a 18 year old actress wouldn't be able to portray someone who was 38. When I first started out, my thinking was very simple. I could not feel the character's inner world. But from gaining so much experience I have been able to do this. Recently I have been filming new TV series "The Good, the bad and the ugly". Although the storyline script never requested me to cry, there were times where I suddenly got inspired. It was like my heart got pricked by a needle, and the pain made me cry non stop.

In a Closed World alone

Do not think that I am a girl who is sensitive and worries a lot, actually my tears are very valuable. Emotions going up and down is not very good, I am a person that can really control my mood. One time, it was last year, rumors regarding Michael Tao and I spread, my mood was so down that I almost wanted to jump out of the entertainment industry.

Over a period of time, I will end up blocking myself out and the reason is because there is just too many news. When I started dating Deric Wan, I was followed by Doggie Team (the media) constantly. One time we were in a dimmed location to film for "The Legend of Love", before filming started we were in the car together, when suddenly there were 5 or 6 cameras flashing, at the time I thought we were like criminals that were found in the car, the atmosphere was really frighten. Afterwards, I started to close up myself more and more, when I had time off, I would not dare to go out. During filming, I would avoid speaking too much to others, I rather sit alone and read books, study the script and tried to focus on how I would act out the role.

Revealing Her true personality

When people get older, we realize that each day many tragedies happen in the world, like the Si Chuan earthquake, this allowed me to cherish my present life, enjoy each and every day. Peace equals Happiness, recently the there is not much news, in contrast I actually feel more relaxed, I finally can be myself again, will not have to pretend to be friendly, protect the Miss Hong Kong image, maintain a beautiful image, I don't mind to reveal my true personality.

Presently I am more open than before, although I will not purposely play with other people, but I understand that filming is a collective work, so I will communicate with more people. Hopefully I can learn from different things from different kinds of people; Like Roger Kwok, he knows I want creative roles, I hope to be the flower vases of my roles. Actually I can do really ugly or rough characters.

Widening the Circle

Earlier Kelly Chen announced that she and her long time boyfriend are getting married during her concert, I'm very happy for her! I also remember that in the past when I was in Miss Chinese International, Kelly Chen was one of the guest performers, we both once had a casual acquaintance. I really envy Kelly and her fiance's Malaysian-Chinese romance, the two although separated before, but in the end they were able to have a happy ending.

However, My feeling towards marriage has not changed one bit. Still continue to place my career in first place because I clearly understand that in the entertainment circle if you want to start a successful relationship, it is not that easy. Currently I have a lot of pursuers, but the circle of life is pretty board, at least my friends are no longer just females.

Epilogue:

Women wants to be pretty, thinking that forcing yourself to be thin is called beauty, Sonija encountered life in a low tide, where her weight went down to 104 pounds. At first she thought it was funny, until recently her co-star Sharon Chan reported the "truth" to her, Sonija said: "At the time I thought if your thin, whatever shirt you put on will look good, but Sharon told me that at the time I looked like I had a block face, very rough! Now that I gained some weight, Sharon would always grab onto my hand and say that my round figure looks very cute, I would be happy to hear that."